1. Get healthy and bigger.
2. Get back driving which would lead to working.
3. Go on holidays to relax.

So let me tell you how none of this has been possible in my timeframe of 5 months.

GET HEALTHY AND BIGGER.

1. This seems to be always a struggle. I reached my top weight on Friday 64.4 KG’s. Delighted with life I went to Dublin with Rosie for her beautiful niece Amalei’s 3rd birthday party. Great day apart for Mayo losing. That night I found myself sick and knew my stomach was in trouble (I am a terrible passenger.) After coming home on Sunday I was still sick and weighed myself this morning. I had lost 1.3 KG. This might not seem much but to me was devastating as it took me 2 weeks to gain.

GET BACK DRIVING WHICH WOULD LEAD TO WORK.

2 .On the 7th of August I took a test in Castlebar to see if I am capable of work once more. The test was horrendous. 5 hours of mathematics and riddles while being timed. I came out with little hope. Today I opened the results which showed I need help to return to work and I am in the 10th percentile. Yes everybody there are 90% better than me. On the scale it shows below average. With the result it tells me I may return to work but only up to 3-4 hours per day and 2-3 days per work. A small bonus. In my head I always knew it would take time but I don’t like bad results. I am honestly sick of hearing bad news. Driving is another factor. No driving until November 10th. And none of this can be overturned due to not being called into the national rehabilitation centre because I need a private room. Could be a week to 3 month’s.

I still try to keep hope and positive as that’s all I have got left. I still have fight left in me. I wonder how do I pick myself up and move on? Work have extended my contract until January 31st. Which is wonderful. Rosie and my wonderful family keep me focused on my Goal. The website and interviews have raised tremendous interest and forced people to put there lives in perspective to real problems. A typical example is this current problem. Friends and family are returning from holidays and great times to turn around and complain that they need to work but the fundamental fact is work to me at this very moment and time would be a dream. Keep my mind off not being sick. I can’t fly, work or drive. Life has been on hold and there is no restart button. What I am basically trying to say is everyone needs to put there problems into perspective. I have only one way out of this and that’s up to me. Hard work and positive attitude.
I will succeed but it will not be easy.

GO ON HOLIDAYS

3.  When I was admitted to hospital in may. I had a holiday booked to Italy with Rosie and 4 very good friends. Luckily the airlines refunded to help the pain. I recieved snapchats of friends on holidays enjoying themselves and I don’t begrudge anybody of a break they deserve but what does annoy me is the complaint it’s all over. Yes it’s over but without that job you dread going into, that job paid for your holiday. I would be grateful to work to get that chance but that has been put on hold. The power of my mind has helped immensely as I still maintain I’m lucky to be walking or even on this earth. Learn how to be grateful and you can overcome everything that stands in your way. Whether it be finance, relationships or in my case health.

First step is to keep positive as my view if you bring negative thoughts on yourself they will continue to grow. Positivety is key to success in life. There is no point on frowning on things that get you down. You are the biggest person in this issue. Nobody can rise above this only me and to do that I’d hard work and belief in my goal. In life we need to be constructive in what we need to do and no matter what it is it always involves hard work and a will to live.