On this day 4 years ago I was sitting in Castlebar not able to breath. The next day I got a call telling me that I needed to be admitted urgently. In that moment I declined. Never before in my life had I said no to the powers that be, to people keeping me alive and had my best interests at heart. For whatever reason I sat in Martinas and wallowed for two days. Not moving only to grab lucozade or an oxegen mask in bed to get to sleep. On that Sunday night 5th of October the call of a lifetime came and one of the vital questions was if I was currently in hospital. Luckily I wasn’t and my life ensued and I’m on my third chance now. This has thought me a vital lesson. Why do we need to listen to others 1. For information 2. Advice 3. To have another opinion?? What is more important here? Personally I think that your own self inner being knows you best. In my head I can tell my limitations and I push the boundaries to the limit, not to test them but to make me stronger. Without a strong mind. You are nothing. There is no shame on being stubborn or set in your ways.

As I have said before. I have seen countless phsycologists and life coaches. But let’s break down what these guys do…  They go do a course on a average character on how there brain works and what flaws can happen. Behavioural aspects and how to notice someone in pain. What confuses me is how they think everyone is the same. Not hard to see someone in pain. My mindset is a little different from most people. I could name the people I know with a positive look on life in my 2 hands. In my view there are only a few that respect life for what it is and why we are here to live it, not just let it drift by. How would you describe yourself? Positive? Getting by? Doing fine? The real question should be what do I really want to be and achieve. Positivety can come in many different forms and really are set by your own goals. Sure, we all have our limitations but what I am trying to get across is that limitations are there to be broken and the words “I can’t” and “I think” should never enter the mindset in these situations.

Example being. I want to go back to college but I can’t afford €12,000. Okay that’s what the problem is but there is a solution. Not I will never be able to afford this. It’s “how will I afford this.” Work hard , play hard. At the end of the day where does a future come from. Having these few letters after a name can earn you more than €12000 in a month depending on your goals. We have friends that are “getting by” but complaining their job is terrible but what are they doing about it. Threatening to leave. To be totally honest I really couldn’t give 2 fucks. It’s your decision and not my worry. Negativity also comes in different forms and unfortunately is ripe in this country. If everyone was positive, nice, charming and helpful we would be laughing. I have a feeling and could be totally wrong but I honestly think it takes a major event In someone’s life to change there attitude towards living and not giving 2 continental fucks. I hope I am wrong because it’s a fact that everyone has the ability to achieve whatever they want in there lives. The brain controls every emotion and motor in your body. Use it to make yourself happy #dreambig